Once I began to think and truly believe that, "I am an Artist!' many things came my way. I began to not only "think" as an artist, but to "behave" as one.
I went through the confrontation with myself that I needed to confront. Yes, it took time, but it was the wisest investment that I had made in a long, long time for I was finally investing in me!
I was not doing for others things that simply interfered in my own happiness, I had all the right reasons in mind, I was doing this for "Me."
One of my greatest obstacles in the process of the journey, as I stated before, was in learning to get out of my own way! My motives weren't right, my ambitions where misplaced, my self-doubts and obstacles where the excuses and the cop outs that I used to inhibit myself. Once I really sat down and reach deep within myself, I discovered that I was worth all the pain, all the agony, and all the rewards that I received by going through it. I learned to realize this wasn't about anyone else, it wasn't for anyone else's reasons and motivations, but for my own personal gain. Yes, that sounds selfish, but does it make me a selfish person? That was another question that I had to evaluate and I'm happy to report the answer is, "No!" By assessing and analyzing all and dispelling all the myths, and yes, even facing the facts, one fact remained. "I am an Artist!" I knew it and what's more, for the first time in a long time, I believed it with all my heart, mind and soul." My next question was, "What do I do about it?"
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